Kamloops

November 17th. Wow. I've been in Kamloops for almost a month. Feels like I just got here...and well in less than 6 months I will be moving again. You are probably wondering why?

Where to begin... Wes has been working up north in a camp style setting. He worked 2 weeks and had 1 week off. He was never home for a full week since you have to drive 12 plus hrs each way, it eats up your time off. So we decided to move to Kamloops...for a change and so Wes could be somewhat closer to work. We found a place with a friend in Kamloops and thought this will be great! I really wasn't a super fan of this camp life. It was taking a toll on Wes and our marriage. I don't think its easy for anyone..and maybe some married people like being apart all the time. I am not one of them.

We packed up our stuff and took 2 trips to get our belongings to our new home. We were in Kamloops 2 days....2 days!! and Wes got a phone call from his old company back in the lower mainland. Delta to be exact. We had just come from there...it was an offer he couldn't refuse. So Wes is back in the lower mainland...and I am in Kamloops. It is a step up from the camp job life. I get to talk to him more and see him more often. Wes has more normal hours! But I am in Kamloops and he isn't. We signed a lease so I guess I will stay. Rent is cheap. But what do I do with myself? Its hard to be motivated to make friends and get plugged in to the community. Christmas is coming and we are going out East. I am finding myself in limbo land yet again. I'm applying for jobs..but I have a hard time knowing I will be quitting in less than 6 months. Blah.

I'm here! Ha ha I've been MIA in the blogging world. I will update! I need to write more!! Just wanted to say HI!!

Art

I've always loved making art. I am not the talented in the mainstream sense. But I love being creative. My own style of creative. I had bought a variety of canvas for Wes about 3 years ago. Since I don't know much about art supplies...I guess I didn't get the right kind. So I've been moving them around for the last 3 years. I got a random idea to make something bright yesterday. So I pulled out my paints and canvas. I lost myself for a few hrs in being creative. I am really having fun! Here are a few things I did yesterday. I can't wait to try this style with the proper paint and supplies! I also just love being creative with my Husband. He is a phenomenal artist!

My Hunky Husband.

My husband. What a man. He really is one of the sweetest guys I have ever met. I can't imagine what he will be like the older he gets. He is so hardworking. He is working HARD for me...even when I don't see it or even know it. He is working HARD for our future. He is being so wonderful and supportive to me....even when I refuse to notice it. I want to act appropriately in the right way instead of thinking its just owed to me. My husband is a rare find. His laughter is sooo contagious. I will often find something funny online or on tv and wish he was there to fill my heart with his loud full hearted laugh. I will sometimes keep them, just for him, so I can watch his face and see him delight in something. I adore those times. I am so blessed to have this gift of a Man in my life. We are on this road together...sometimes we probably want to ride in the trunk, unsure of what is around the corner, or we are getting on each others nerves...but most days we like to sit together in the front seat.

Time is on my side. Or is it?

I have lots of time on my side. Maybe that's the problem. In a society and a lifetime of only having small chunks of time to do things, I don't know how to manage all this time. I have so much time I don't want to do anything. I have become LAZY. Yes, lazy. I have had a year of basically doing what I would like with my time (if it is free). I would like to think if we had money I would have done more with my time, like learn something at a school in a classroom somewhere. But the reality is I have too much time on my hands to actually plan something. I know how that sounds. But this is how I feel! :)

I didn't realize how withdrawn and depressed/lonely/wandering around in a pit, I had become. That I am still in. Will finding a job fix this? NO. Will it help get me out of the house and become social and tear down some fears...Yes. The truest thing is working on my relationship with God. Nothing else matters. I keep thinking I can dig and climb out of this pit. But really I can't. Even with the finest tools. Only asking God to pull me out with get me unstuck. I need to find where I became so afraid and closed off to the world. Why I became so afraid of death, sickness and dying. Why does that grip me so tight? I know the truth and I know the life. I just need to start being honest with myself and God, and well this is my blog and I can make sense or no sense at all. That is the beauty of blogging!

On a lighter note...I made avocado ice cream....a really easy thing to do! I'm excited to try it and see how it turns out...I will let you know!

Tuesday.

I love Tuesday's. I meet with some ladies at a bible study. I am the junior by almost 30 years. I love it. As much as I would like to meet people my age, I love being the youngster. I get to soak in so much wisdom. These ladies have become so dear to me. They are my new family. They give me perspective on my own life. I am so thankful for Tuesday mornings.

Working time.

Job. What a weird word to me. I haven't worked since Sept 2009. I got married, and then moved to Canada. I couldn't work. I was house bound. Which at times I loved, and other times I didn't like as much. I love being able to make Wes breakfast, lunch and dinner. I even love doing his laundry. :) Dishes on the other hand...I don't love so much. Hee hee I know I have been working around the house. I have been my own boss to a certain degree. Now I am looking for a paying job. This is the first time in my life that I don't have major pressure to find a really good job really quick. I have time to look and be a little picky. I also am ready to just WORK and make some extra income!! Today I have a job interview. It would be at a Flower Nursery. Could be fun. It's just down the road from our house. I hate the thought of driving over 30 mins each way for work. I know lots of people do it...I just don't want to! Wish me luck! I will keep you all posted!